Me, myself and my vices

Sometimes I read my friends' blogs and wonder with a tint of envy on where they got all the inspiration to write all the wonderful stuffs. Are their lives more interesting than mine? Are their life experiences more rich and their ability to see the world differently better? Sometimes I felt that compared to theirs, my life is quite bland, which is quite depressing. Or it is that I failed to look at the interesting-ness of an event?

Today I spent a fair amount of time watching TV. First I watch Dr Phil. Dr Phil is like your Aunt Agony or Dear Thelma on newspapers where they advise you on life matters. Today's featured patient is a self-confessed 'bitch'. Yeah she called herself a bitch and knew that she act like a bitch. And yet she continued living as a bitch, thinking that it is the only way to keep her station in life is simply being a bitch. Even if she had only a single friend. Quite interesting to see how someone justifies their behaviour, even though he/she knows and we know that being a bitch is undesirable. It is indeed a main facet of human fallacies: the thought that one is always right and others wrong.

After that I watched Oprah. She had a panel speaking on ageing gracefully or how to look young even when you are physically old. As I had suspected, it is all in the mind. If you think you are young, you are young. I had a beautiful essay by a Samual Ullman who wrote about Youth right in front of my study desk. The first paragraph reads "Youth is not a time of life, it is a state of mind: it is not a matter of rosy cheeks, red lips and supple knees; it is a matter of the will, a quality of the imagination, a vigor of the emotions; it is the freshness of the deep springs of life." I like being young at heart, and be able to laugh aloud, scream whenever I want and squeal in delight like a child without getting disapproving looks from my peers.

Then I watched a cooking show. It always marvels me how the chefs can magically turn mundane, uninspiring everyday ingredients into scrumptious gastronomic delights. I always have a soft spot for cooking shows, with my favorite being Iron Chef.

At night, I watch a game show called 'The Rich List.' Basically it is a game where contestants need to list a certain number of items under a list. For example, name 18 capitals starting with the alphabet A,B or C. I like this kind of game show because it always makes me realise how shallow my level of knowledge is. It can motivate me to learn more about the big big world out there. There's an interesting question today that sounds like this: name Maria's favorite things as sung in the song Maria - My Favorite Things in the movie Sound of Music. Even though I watched the movie 3 times before and can hum the music.. guess it, I just can't remember the lyrics at all! However, the contestants managed to do it. Amazing!

If you are interested, the answer can be found below:

Maria: My Favorite Things Lyrics

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things

Cream colored ponies and crisp apple streudels
Doorbells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favorite things

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
Silver white winters that melt into springs
These are a few of my favorite things

Now I guess you are wondering where I wrote these seemingly innocuous and mundane TV shows. Well, I don't know. Perhaps just wanna share with you all what are important to me or what things interest me. I was inspired to write this post after reading the blogs of Chang Yang and See Hua, where Chang Yang wrote about his love for maths and med, and See Hua on reading about Physics and Politics and Computers et al. Guess after reading this post you might realise that I kinda like social stuffs like psychology and the wonders of our human brain. And yes I definitely like cooking and reading. The stuffs I read are usually fiction, unless it has to do with self-motivation or personal development. Dry books are a big no-no. For examples of good dry books, see See Hua's blog.

Currently I am very interested in sampling the feeling of being chased by the opposite sex. Personally I felt that guys are unlucky in that they are often the initiator in looking for a girlfriend, thus really depriving them of the excitment of being pursued. The fluttering of hearts, the increase in adrenaline pumping, the heightened state of anticipation - I read tons of it in book but in reality how does it really feel like? Even though it seems remotely impossible, I still haven't lost hope that some girl out there will fulfill my interest. The horoscope reading this week seems to indicate that it may happen:

gemini: may 21 to june 21
A couple of things you were hoping for finally happen [me: wow...] (...) Jupiter in your angle of marriage and intimate relationships means you have wonderful vibes for your love life [me: put two and two together.. aha!] (now keeping fingers crossed) =P

Hope this blog manage to throw some light on who I really is. Actually I don't even really understand myself. I felt that I am full of paradoxes.

Yeah by the way, I also enjoy dancing (juz tried Bollywood dance laz week n hip hop laz yr) and I do play popular guy-ish computer games like DotA and Counter Strike and Football Manager. Someone said its hard to picture me playing comp games juz now. Hmm.. do I look like a serious no fun guy?