I have been sitting in front of my laptop with the blogger home page staring back at me for 3 straight nights and yet nothing came out of my mind.
There's a desire to write something and yet I don't know what to write or where to start.
My mind is in a constant whirl, my life a flurry of activities. I have so many plans, yet in the mumble jumble hocus pocus mess that is my brain, I still have not figured out what I want in life.
I always admired those who have a crystal ball in their head, where they can gaze in and see how their life will turn out in unfazed clarity, and then taking the necessary steps to achieve what they want. Me? I lived in a fantasy world, shrouded by the false pretension that my road in life is already paved in front of me and somewhere deep within me, an inner voice will know what to do when it is time to roll the dice, and somehow, a six will be thrown.
What is my passion? What is my purpose in life? What do I want to achieve? I have no clear cut, definite answers. Right now it is only a mist covered track in front of me, with me stumbling along with blindfold on, hoping with some dumb luck that there is actually a road paved with gold in front of me instead of some rock jaggled cliffs.
I constantly strived to look into myself, searching, looking, figuring out what I really want. What makes me do what I did? What are my life values? What are the priorities in my life? The more I look within, the more confused I became. There are just so many contradiction, so many tangled wires, a split personality even.
I gave up.
Who knows, serendipity may be the key to success in life.
There's a desire to write something and yet I don't know what to write or where to start.
My mind is in a constant whirl, my life a flurry of activities. I have so many plans, yet in the mumble jumble hocus pocus mess that is my brain, I still have not figured out what I want in life.
I always admired those who have a crystal ball in their head, where they can gaze in and see how their life will turn out in unfazed clarity, and then taking the necessary steps to achieve what they want. Me? I lived in a fantasy world, shrouded by the false pretension that my road in life is already paved in front of me and somewhere deep within me, an inner voice will know what to do when it is time to roll the dice, and somehow, a six will be thrown.
What is my passion? What is my purpose in life? What do I want to achieve? I have no clear cut, definite answers. Right now it is only a mist covered track in front of me, with me stumbling along with blindfold on, hoping with some dumb luck that there is actually a road paved with gold in front of me instead of some rock jaggled cliffs.
I constantly strived to look into myself, searching, looking, figuring out what I really want. What makes me do what I did? What are my life values? What are the priorities in my life? The more I look within, the more confused I became. There are just so many contradiction, so many tangled wires, a split personality even.
I gave up.
Who knows, serendipity may be the key to success in life.
1 comment:
I guess just do what you love to do; or try to love you can't help but to continue doing. :(
But then I would have been a full time blogger and computer technician if I heed my own saying.
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